PERPLEX

Twice you lose to a game, there’s no third time isn’t it? If you fail again for the third time, it only means you’re fucking stupid! Going through the same bullshit… Men, what a fucking idiot!

Facing life like you are dead, pushing through the limits of your sanity, what’s with it, that you can’t see the light? Are you blind not to notice all the signs in front of you? Are you deaf not to hear the warning signals? Do you actually have to go through it all?  They say you have to enjoy life like it will be your last day to live.  I say… I would rather be dead, than being forsaken in this game of life.  I have heard that happiness is superficial, that happiness is only a feeling of the moment you have, thus it will be easily blown by the wind and in just one, just one fucking breath you’ll take, all is taken away. Then you have to start all over again…

While facing the hard truth about life, you still have the courage to take a deep swim in the cold deep ocean of love.  Where you can’t even see where the waves will lead you.  Don’t you feel the pain when the sudden rush of water hits you? Or you’re already numb from the previous crash you’ve been through.  This time, unlike the game of life, you know that you are going to lose no matter what kind of scheme you use.  You’re a chicken shit! Inevitably embracing your fear to be alone and yet you keep on running still afraid to be torn apart.  You make this big wall around you thinking it will keep you safe from harm.  But you, yourself are the one who stupidly climb up the wall and falling over to the other side knowingly no one is there to catch you. Ridiculous!

Now, your mind is working too fast, thinking of ways to get back the life you once have.  Your heart is uncertain for what will you choose. Letting go and be alone or hold on and be in pain.

Life is a gamble like love is unfair.  So what are you willing to risk? Life? Or Love?